Jumaat, Julai 30, 2004

"Why"
 
 
 
Why,
 
do you always do this to me?
 
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
 
How come, you act like this
 
Like you just don't care at all
 
Do you expect me to believe
 
I was the only one to fall?
 
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
 
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
 
It's not supposed to feel this wayI need you, I need you
 
More and more each day
 
It's not supposed to hurt this wayI need you, I need you, I need you
 
Tell me, are you and me still together?
 
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
 
Tell me, why
 
Hey, listen to what we're not saying
 
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
 
Try, to look at me and really see my heart
 
Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
 
I can feel, I can feel you near me, even when you're far away
 
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
 
It's not supposed to feel this way
 
I need you, I need you
 
More and more each day
 
It's not supposed to hurt this way
 
I need you, I need you, I need you
 
Tell me, are you and me still together?
 
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
 
Tell me, why
 
So go and think about whatever you need to think about
 
Go on and dream about whatever you need to dream about
 
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
 
I can feel,
 
I can feel you near me, even though you're far away
 
I can feel, I can feel you baby, why
 
It's not supposed to hurt this way
 
I need you, I need you
 
More and more each day
 
It's not supposed to hurt this way
 
I need you, I need you, I need you
 
Tell me
 
It's not supposed to hurt this way
 
I need you, I need you
 
More and more each day
 
It's not supposed to hurt this way
 
I need you, I need you, I need you
 
Tell me, are you and me still together?
 
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
 
Tell me, why
 
 
- 'why',Avril Lavigne "Under My Skin" (2004)
 
 
 
 
 
p/s: ... why aaa???
 
 
 
 
 

Khamis, Julai 29, 2004

Hari ini hidung dilanda resdung lagi … biasa buat diri yang tidak tahu, tidak pernah dan tidak sedar akan peri pentingnya menjaga kesihatan diri dan cuba menghindar dari mengambil langkah-langkah kurang bijak seperti ‘melantak’ dan ‘membelasah’ minuman berunsurkan kesejukan dan di-saduri ais beku. Setiap kali menghambur bersin ; setiap kali itu juga kepala ingin dihempas kedinding dengan momentum yang agak hebat dan kekuatan yang agak dahsyat!

Hujung minggu ini sudah pun menghampiri pengakhiran sebuah lagi bulan. Seperti kata-kata orang kebiasaan, ‘ cepat betul masa berlalu’. Memang tepat telahan itu dan sekarang ini pun memang semuanya ‘terpaksa’ dipercepatkan. Tinggal aku sekali lagi duduk termangu dan terkesima dengan arus kehidupan sendiri yang buntu tidak menentu. Persetan betul! Sekiranya wujud jawapan untuk segala kesulitan dan kesengasaraan ini --- AYUH!!! … persembahkan dirimu kepada diri agar keamanan dan kedamaian dapat terwujud dalam satu ikatan abadi.

Selesai ini, langsung bergerak menuju kebiasaan : berfikir dan terus berfikir tentang apa, kenapa dan kadangkala mengapa dan macam mana. Tanya dan terus bertanya dan bilah-bilah jawapannya tetap sama : sedikit dan samar-samar. Namun aku terus gagahkan semangat dan jati diri berperibadi tinggi untuk terus menerus mencari ‘penghujung’nya! ( … sekali lagi aku ‘terbersin’ dengan kadar desibel tinggi yang boleh memecah keheningan hari yang sungguh bening ini dan dapat juga menjemput rasa ‘beron’ manusia disekeliling – maafkanlah hidung yang serba terganggu ini).

Oh! Beberapa hari yang terkebelakang ada seorang sahabat menyapa; sedang aku cuba-cuba menempatkan diri dikalangan masyarakat neo-urban dengan berperanan semesra mungkin : berbual seolah-olah tahu akan apa yang dibualkan. Sambil alunan tangan dan gerak mulut seraya dia bertanya memberi sedikit komentar :


 
" … uhh! You’re so vain, you know that??? " ( dengan mimik muka yang jujur teramat )


 
Berlagak tidak tersentap dengan karangan ayat itu sedangkan ingin saja di tanya dengan terus : " kenapa pulak? "


Tapi diri tidak mudah melatah dan kaget kerana sudah terlatih dengan pengalaman. Sesudah kembali ke teratak kesunyian, sekali lagi terimbas kata-kata yang itu. Tidak puas rasanya segala organ dalaman jika tidak diselak erti dan maksud sebenar telahan itu.

 

(
rujukan dari MACMILLAN English Dictionary : for advance learner )

vain / B ven / A adjective *
1 someone who is vain is very proud and thinks they are very attractive or special:
CONCEITED:
He was vain about his looks, spending hours in the gym.

2 unsuccessful or useless:
a vain attempt/bid/effort:

 They made a vain attempt to protect the town from attack.
vain hope:

 He underwent a knee operation in the vain hope of getting into the team.

(c) Macmillan Publishers Ltd. 2003

 
Di perah-perah rasanya kotak ingatan. Sebetulnya ; mana satu yang dimaksudkan sahabat tadi --- yang pertama atau yang kedua atau yang kedua-duanya?! Keterbukaan pada pendapat, nasihat , komentar, kriktikan, ulasan, dan kadangkala luahan rasa memanglah dialu-alukan kiranya ada kelemahan bahkan kekuatan diri. Namun yang ini harus diperjelaskan agar rapi susunan fikiran. Lantas penaakulan dapatlah dilakukan dengan kemas.

Kamus tadi di-sisip bersahaja diatas rak baju kerana rak buku sudah ditimbun perkara-perkara lain. Satu lagi cabaran untuk seorang pemikir picisan seperti aku sambil menggaru-garu hidung ( … bukan mengorek! ) tanda gatal dan pedih yang terperi akibat gangguan resdung tadi.

Nampaknya aku terdengar panggilan dari dalam untuk mengubah diri menjadi alter-ego aku yang lagi satu --- satu lagi tugas yang dipanggil tanggungjawab kerana manusia perlukan seorang superhero dalam diri masing-masing, dan aku :

 
‘ There is a dark king who rules our dreams from a place of shadows and fantastic things. He is Morpheus, the lord of story. Older than humankind itself, he inhabits -- along with Destiny, Death, Destruction, Desire, Despair, and Delirium, his Endless sisters and brothers -- the realm of human consciousness. His powers are myth and nightmare -- inspirations, pleasures, and punishments manifested beneath the blanketing mist of sleep .’
 
 
 
Surrender to him now.

 
… for he is the Sandman.


 
P/s : kepada sesiapa yang memilki ubat resdung yang mujarab ; aku nak pinjam.
 

 

Selasa, Julai 27, 2004

I like the stars. It's the illusion of permanence, I think. I mean, they're always flaring up and caving in and going out. But from here, I can pretend. I can pretend that things last. I can pretend that lives last longer than moments. Mortals flicker and flash and fade. Worlds don't last; and stars and galaxies are transient, fleeting things that twinkle like fireflies and vanish into cold and dust... and i'm still here; being here.
 
We do what we must. Sometimes we can choose the path we follow. Sometimes our choices are made for us. And sometimes we have no choice at all. I had neither --- for now.
 
Things need not have happened to be true. Experience are the shadow truths that will endure when mere facts are dust and ashes, and forgot. I do not threaten, I merely advise caution. What we obtain too cheap, we esteem too lightly: It is dearness only that gives every things its value. Everybody has a secret world inside of them. I mean everybody. All of the people in the whole world -- no matter how dull and boring they are on the outside. Inside them they've all got unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid, amazing worlds ... not just one world.
 
 
 
and I lived mine.
 
 
 
' It is sometimes a mistake to climb; it is always a mistake never even to make the attempt. If you do not climb, you will not fall. This is true. But is it that bad to fail, that hard to fall? '
 
-DREAM, form the wake. 

 

 

 

 

Isnin, Julai 26, 2004

sleep of the just; as told by me of the otherside.  
 
 
... a long good night ( a thought from the one i love and care the most)
 
 
 
Dream are endless : there's a conundrum. In this aspect ( and we perceive but aspects of the endless, as we see the light glinting from one tiny facet of some huge and flawlessly cut precious stone ), he is rake-thin, with skin the color of falling rain. Dream accumulates names to himself like others make friends; but he permits himself few friends. If he is closest to anyone, it is to his soul, whom he sees but rarely.
 
He heard long ago, in a dream, that one day in every slumber; despair takes on mortal flesh, better to comprehend what the lives it takes must feel like, to taste the bitter tang of mortality: that this is the price they must pay for being the divider of the living from all that has gone before, all that must come after. Dream broods on this tale, but has never questioned about its truth.
 
Perhaps he fears that it would answer him. Of all the endless, save perhaps destiny, it is most conscious of responsibilities, the most meticulous in execution.Dream casts a human shadow, when it occurs to him to do so.
 
 

" Mister Sandman, Bring me a dream. Make her the cutest that I've ever seen ... give her the word that I'm not a rover...Then tell me that my lonesome life is over. "

- John Constantine, in Preludes & Nocturnes (quoting lyrics, of course)

 

' STAR WARS ' 
 
EPISODE III: REVENGE OF THE SITH.
 

 
That's right, LucasFilm officially announced the title of EPISODE III and like George Lucas had said, fans had already guessed what it was. The SITH title has probably been the most long-rumored title and for that sheer fact alone, few thought it was actually true. There was plenty more news that came out of the LucasFilm STAR WARS panel, but you'll have to wait until I file his official report. For now, check out the article announcing the title on the official STAR WARS website . So what do you think of REVENGE OF THE SITH? Head over to the comment box  below to talk with your fellow schmoes about the announcement... Thanks to everyone who wrote in sharing the news. 
 

 
the rush ... again and again!

 


Ahad, Julai 25, 2004

aku melihat diri hari ini dan sekali-sekala kelihatan imbasan sebenar yang terlihat dimata fikiran.aku telah kembali dari dunia lamunan yang telah lama aku hinap; tapi itu hanya sementara kerana tidak perlulah diperlekehkan diri dengan perkara yang tidak mudah dihayati.nyata : adakah ini satu titik tolak kesedaran atau hanya satu lagi impian durja?
 
berjalan longlai menuju ke pintu keluar sambil berlegar-legar di dalam, sesuatu ... sesuatu yang bertanya;
 
ini bukan satu lagi hari yang perlu kau sia-siakan seperti yang sebelum-sebelumnya.
 
setelah berlalu masa dan pergi waktu itu --- terang sekali sekarang,  ia telah disiakan.
 
siapa yang sudi membantu akan diri dan aku ini kerana pertolongan yang dipinta belum kunjung datang.
 
 
akan tibakah hari itu dimana semuanya aman?

 

Sabtu, Julai 24, 2004

newsflash from the wonderful world of fanboy
 
... true believers,embraced thyself !!!
 
 
( source : some Hollywood Reporter.com )
 
 
 
numero uno.
 
We heard last week that exciting TRANSFORMERS news would be revealed at the San Diego Comic-Con for all those lucky attendees. The rest of us sitting home by ourselves would just have to wait to hear it second hand. But the word comes today that the "exciting news" is that DreamWorks and Paramount have signed on to co-produce the film with none other than Senor Spielbergo executive producing! Apparently negotiations for the rights to the film were very competitive and Hasbro finally accepted the DreamWorks/Paramount terms when Spielberg convinced them he would have an active hand in developing the picture. DreamWorks will handle the film in domestic markets with Paramount taking international rights. No word yet on when this film might start moving towards heavy pre-production but rest assured, this is one guy that will be following this film VERY closely. How they plan to turn a giant tractor-trailer into an equally giant robot remains to be seen. Stay tuned as I (at least the lucky bastards who got to go to San Diego...)will bring you the latest and greatest from TRANSFORMERS and the rest of the SD Comic-Con.
 
 
numero dos.
 
Confirming the internet reports, it was confirmed today that Darren Aronofsky will direct and produce the live-action adaptation of Alan Moore's seminal graphic novel THE WATCHMEN. Originally set up with writer David Hayter (X-MEN) to make his directorial debut on, Hayter will now step aside and let Aronosfky direct from his script. It's unclear at this point whether Aronosfky will order some rewrites or polishes of the existing draft. Interestingly enough, WATCHMEN was a DC Comics series but the film will be produced by Paramount, not DC's sister company Warner Brothers. WATCHMEN has long been considered one of the finest works of art in the comic field and marked a turning point for how comics were written. Moore promised after the abyssmal LEAGUE OF EXTRAORDINARY GENTLEMEN that he would never again option one of his comics for the big screen but unfortunately for him, he agreed to the WATCHMEN movie before that. Aronofsky will likely try to get his pet project THE FOUNTAIN off the ground at Warner Bros. first before he tackles WATCHMEN. The project gained new life when Hugh Jackman came aboard to replace Brad Pitt who dropped out many moons ago to film TROY.
 
 
and now we can really --- really rejoice.

 

 

 

Khamis, Julai 22, 2004

hari ini aku cuba ingin titipkan sesuatu yang jauh dibenak --- sesuatu yang kerap dianggap dan sering dilihat sentimental.
 
luahan perasaan.
 
malam tadi cuma lena dua jam ... itu kalau dihitung dari perkiraan jam di dinding kamar peraduan.
 
resah dan hampir-hampir gelisah.
 
sudah saban hari diri meragut kekacauan sedangkan gerakan menghindar itu boleh dilakukan.aku tidak meratap apa-apa cumanya imbasan kenangan yang semalam dan kelmarin tidak henti-henti dan tidak sudah-sudah membelasah diri.aku sebenarnya yang merelakan diperlakukan begitu oleh emosi : terganggu barangkali.
 
semalam . selepas dikejutkan oleh pemergian ayahanda seorang sahabat ; aku dikerah ke sebuah hospital.sepupu terlantar disana - wad ICU ... dilanggar,koma.aku hanya melihat dalam sebak.ayahandanya cuba menahan kedukaan yang ada.tapi aku terlihat juga.
 
air mata itu jangan disembunyi.
 
sedang berkira-kira untuk bersedih, ibuku disapa seseorang.aku tidak berapa pasti siapa tapi aku diajak untuk menurut ke katil yang lain pula.tiba-tiba dia bertemu seseorang yang dalam kotak ingatan ku memang pasti tidak ada rakamannya.setelah menanti beberapa seketika - ia berderai akhirnya; sahabat baik ibu di sekolah rupanya.sudah lama tidak bersua kerana ada beberapa detik yang kaget dibuatnya.mereka bertukar-tukar pelukan yang pada aku amat menyentuh dan sungguh terjalin.sekali lagi sebak melanda namun tidak akan sampai ke daerah air mata.diberitahu kemudian teman ibu terkena kencing manis.kurang dayanya aku lihat ... pasti : oleh kerana aku melihat kakinya tadi sudah dicantas.
 
air mata itu jangan disembunyi.
 
pulang terus ke rumah tapi tidak lama.ada kenduri arwah harus dihadiri.'tiga hari', kata sahabat. macam biasa.aku menjemput sendiri.bertemu beberapa sahabat lama di sekolah dahulu.banyak yang berubah sama ada rela mengubah atau ter'paksa' diubah.ada yang membawa 'pasangan' masing-masing; segelintir nya pula sudah bertunang cincin dijari; yang dua tiga sudah mendirikan masjid - berkahwin - berumahtangga.bahagia mereka semua.aku tergerak untuk menumpang kebahagiaan itu biarpun hanya terasa rintik-rintiknya.cerita lebar dan malam pun kiat larut ; 'esok boleh sambung', sapaan sahabat aku anggukkkan tanda sealiran pendapat.pulang ke rumah dengan ligat berfikir dan jiwa dibuai nostalgia semalam dan kenangan kelmarin.laju juga buaiannya.hampir-hampir jatuh ke lembah lamunan.indah.gembira.duka pula tiba dalam diam.
 
air mata itu jangan disembunyi.
 
cuba hendak lelap tapi dengki badan pada mata memang tiada keperiaannya.alangkah dan alangkah!detik itu boleh diputar songsang dan waktu boleh di ulang --- bukankah masa itu lebih lapang dan terluang?terluang untuk membaiki semangat dan memulih jiwa yang kian lompang ... kosong dimakan angan-angan itu.tidakkan ini semua pernah ku gelar sebagai 'penyesalan'?namun apa erti kesal dan sesal sedang sunyi dan sepi malam ini tiada apa dan tiada siapa yang sedar?sudah.
 
air mata itu jangan disembunyi.
 
terlena juga.tapi layakkah ia disebut 'lena' ... sedang dalam tidak sedar pun dihimpit bayang-bayang itu : bayang-bayang kekurangan.nyata dan pasti sekali.memang terganggu hidup.amat sulit.sangat sukar.musuh yang ini paling liat hendak ditumpas.gelisah tak sudah.kalut tak berpenghujung.hendak di sorok dan dicampak jauh-jauh tapi sampai bila pun terlihat juga kan?inilah dinamakan ratapan dan memang betul-betul dihambat hebat kali ini.bangkit dan termenung dijendela yang sama.
 
berbaloi-kah persembunyian ini akhirnya?

 




American Idol’s William Hung Found Dead of Heroin Overdose
 
source : http://www.brokennewz.com
 
 
Las Vegas, NV - Kitschy American Idol Star William Hung, famous for his botching of Ricky Martin’s “She Bangs,” was found dead yesterday, apparently of an intentional heroin overdose. The announcement of his death sent shockwaves to the tens of people who still found him funny.
Ironically, Mr. Hung was found by a VH1 camera crew sent to begin filing “William Hung: Behind the ‘Music.’” Viacom immediately decided to rename the special: “William Hung: fifteen minutes till death.”

Friends of Mr. Hung say he had become despondent in recent days. “I don’t know, it’s just so sad,” said Ming Tse, one of Hung’s former classmates at Stanford, “I heard him the other day on Snotbubble’s Morning Madhouse; he kept trying to make William say things like ‘me so horny’ and ‘hey sailor’ while playing the sound of a bomb falling. I just know William was hurting inside when Snotbubble got him to say, ‘you wanna some-e egg foo young-e.’ It was so sad. I just think he was tired of the commercialization of it all.”

Other friends, who had lost contact with him in recent weeks, feared he was becoming too “Hollywood.” “I’m not surprised he was on heroin,” said Hung’s engineering cohort Melvin Samples, “I mean just two months ago we were out at our usual corner table at Smitty’s, and William actually went and talked to some girls. The next thing I know he’s doing shots with some hipster guys; they were calling him ‘Long Duck Dong’ and making him say ‘au-to-mo-bile.’ From what I hear, it’s not a long leap from that to heroin addiction.”

Stanford’s hippy population immediately misconstrued the situation and adopted Hung’s death as a pet cause. “He was a victim of the corporate greed-machine, just like Kurt [Cobain] and Eddie [Vedder, who is actually still alive],” said one dreadlocked mourner outside the engineering department at Stanford University, where a makeshift memorial had been set up, “he just wanted to sing, and Fox decided to turn him into this joke, man, this fucking joke. They just ate him up and spit him out. Fucking Bill O’Reily. I think it’s because he was against the war.” The last comment is apparently in reference to the fact that Hung once answered “no, thank you” when asked whether he was “for or against the war in Iraq.”

The Las Vegas police released part of his suicide note. It read, “I have no reason of living . . . my art which is my importance to the best everybody laugh to . . . I make end here . . . goodbye world of cruel.”

Although Hung’s immediate family disowned him seconds after his appearance on American Idol, it is believed he has an aunt in Toledo, Ohio who will take care of funeral arrangements.
 
 
p/s : tragis ... tragis --- satu kejadian yang amat tragis.

Rabu, Julai 21, 2004

Confirming the news i heard of late, it is now OFFICIALLY confirmed that Bryan Singer signed a deal with Warner Bros. on Friday to direct and develop SUPERMAN. It looks to be the final nail in the coffin to the JJ Abrams-scripted version of SUPERMAN as Singer has brought aboard X2 writers Michael Dougherty and Dan Harris to write a new script, tentatively titled ' SUPERMAN RETURNS '. Singer was approached about directing a SUPERMAN film once the studio became certain McG wasn't their man. He was interested in the gig but the sticking point was prior commitments to the WB remake of LOGAN'S RUN and X3. Those problems were swiftly dealt with as Singer may be replaced by Francis Lawrence (CONSTANTINE) on LOGAN'S and will now, unfortunately, no longer be directed X3. As part of the SUPERMAN clearing house, producers Neal Moritz and Gilbert Adler, who were recently brought aboard to steer the production in the right direction, have been let go. Singer issued a brief comment saying,
 
"My interest in SUPERMAN dates back many, many years...In fact, it was the Richard Donner classic film that was my day-to-day inspiration in shaping the X-MEN universe for the screen. I feel that Superman has been late in his return and it is time for him to fly again."
 
So begins another era in the SUPERMAN saga that could itself be an interesting movie on day. Considering the studio hired the team behind the movie (X2) that many called the best superhero film since the original SUPERMAN, I consider this a great move by WB and hopefully one that will finally (... dare I say it?) get this film off the ground.
 
 
p/s : please ... oh,please pick a decent Superman for this one.
 
 
 

 
 
 
 
" inna-Lillah-hu'wa-inna-Lilah-hi'Raa'jiun "
 
al-Fatihah buat sahabat ku - Said Ikhzuan dan keluarga diatas kembalinya ayahandanya yang tersayang; Encik Said Idros ke Rahmatullah serta pulangnya beliau ke daerah abadi. Semoga rohnya senantiasa dihujani rahmat dan agar amal pahalanya diberkati yang Maha Satu.
 
 amin
 
 
 
 
 

Selasa, Julai 20, 2004

... experience can really do good things on you; either you realize it or not.

(for the girl who wears crazy ear-rings at James' --- awak tahu awak tu sape.) 
  
 
its just an amazement to see a person that attract such attention when it comes to advices and giving away wonderful tips and hints on relationship. she is flocked day by day and swarm regularly (... mostly by male) in order to seek help. she drives an out-of-shape white kancil and  the girlfriend of one of my best buddies. Today, she talked once more and again its a very inspiring site. Nevertheless, she knows what she's talking about --- and that others 'open' themselves to her.
 
Now, that friend of mine is one lucky guy and i sure hope he knows that. And for her : keep on giving hopes and strength and may all the goodness in life be kind to you.
 
 
 

Isnin, Julai 19, 2004

" Pada suatu masa dahulu,
Di waktu kesetiaan,
Maruah dan kedaulatan padu,
Penghujung kurun ke-15 di Tanah Melayu,
Menebari kegemilangan ke segenap penjuru...
Melaka terkenal indah perkasa,
Memberi perlindungan pada yang meminta,
Di tika inilah kisah bermula,
Di Timur Jawa gelora melanda...Merentas samudera,
 membelah gunung,
Sebuah cerita cinta yang agung... "
 
... 26 AUGUST 2004
 
don't walk --- run to the cinema when the time cometh! 
 
 
and for those who just can't wait ( like me ), here's the lowdown.feel it here.i got the privelege of knowing the plot and story first hand.
 
 
Puteri Gunung Ledang is a love story taking place in 15th century Malacca. The story begins when Princess Gusti sails away from her war torn homeland in search of her love, Admiral Hang Tuah, in Malacca. There, she waits for him at Gunung Ledang. But her brother, Gusti Adipati, has plans to marry her off to Pangeran Demak, in the hopes that Demak would stop his attacks on their homeland of Majapahit. Discovering that his sister had fled to Malacca, Gusti Adipati follows suit, and offers her to the Sultan of Malacca, Sultan Mahmud, in the bid that the Sultan will protect them from the attacks of the Pangeran Demak. The Sultan, who already has a wife, agrees to take on a second. Princess Gusti, upon receiving this news, decides to return to their homeland and marry Demak, for she cannot bear the thought of staying in Malacca without her true love. Her wishes are not granted, and preparations for her wedding to the Sultan are underway.
 
Hang Tuah, upon receiving the news of the impending wedding carries on his loyal duties, for his loyalty lies strongly with the Sultan and the State. He leads a party up the challenging Gunung Ledang to ask Princess Gusti for her hand in marriage, on behalf of the Sultan. Hurt and angry, Princess Gusti agrees to the marriage, on the condition that the Sultan grants her seven wishes. Adipati witnesses the exchange between Hang Tuah and his sister, and attacks Hang Tuah. The Admiral manages to beat him, and becomes confused over his actions. Hang Tuah promises to remain at Gunung Ledang forever because of this. Meanwhile, the Sultan is able to grant the Princess six wishes. In the final wish, the Sultan has to drive a keris into his own son's flesh to get a bowl of blood. Before he is about to drive the keris, Princess Gusti appears and rebukes him. The Sultan, hurt and angry, casts a curse on the Princess to live at Gunung Ledang, never to be seen by another human being again.
 
Hang Tuah, upon learning of the curse, rushes to Gunung Ledang to see his love for the last time. Alas, it was too late. Their love story remains a great legend till this day.
 
uh!
 
the rush ... the rush.
 
 
 
and here's a few line that i excerpt from the teaser trailer.
 
 
 
"Kanda lupa cinta dinda seagung maya"
 
"Cinta kanda? Bukan semesta luasnya?"
 
"Masih kecil berbanding cinta dinda!"
 
"Tapi kanda ke mari juga"
 
"Laksana orang haus dahaga, berjumpa air satu telaga"
 
 
- Gusti Putri Raden Ajeng Retno Dumilah being wooed by Laksamana Hang Tuah.
 
 
 
... be back with more.
 
 

... bila pusingan 'mood' terpesong dari paksi sebenar, maka hidup pun menjadi kelam.
 
 
aku sedar yang hari ini tidak banyak bezanya dari hari-hari yang lain.tiada ke'orthodox'annya ... semuanya serba serbi biasa dan normal kebelakaannya.
cuma kadang-kala terfikir,bilakah hari-hari yang seperti ini akan berlalu dan bilakah hamparan harapan itu akan datang.sudah-sudah dengan dengan konflik diri; datang pula dilema kebingungan.apa ni???
 
sedang aku merewang dan dibawa hanyut dilarut senja --- terus saja mengalun irama kedukaan,satu lagi pukulan rock 'kangkang' maka terpaku aku sebentar di pintu kenangan ( ... itupun kalau layak digelar kenangan).
 
 
" Dinginnya di malam ini suasana pilu,terkenang daku kembali ... sejarah silam "
- sendiri,May.
 
 
begitulah aku bila disebat emosi ... rasa nak tinju muka sendiri.tapi kita ada naluri, ada perasaan.apa salahnya kalau dijemput rasa itu dan dilayan.
persetankan kata orang-orang yang mengata; mereka itu semua buta melankolia.tiap malam aku kerap mengadu sendiri :
 
'oi!apa nak jadi ni ... semua tak kena??! betul ke ni.takkan nak tengok orang ; kau tu bila lagi. diorang semua dah dilayak panggil 'orang'. yang kau ni elok-elok dah jadi orang - nak jadik apa pulak ni???'
 
aduan yang tak masuk di akal.esok-esok bangun lagi,benda yang sama jugak yang kau bebankan --- nak jadi apa? dulu masa kecik-kecik,aku laju ajer cakap kat sekolah aku nak jadi apa bila besar.takyah pikir pun ... dah program dalam kepala hotak!
 
ni dah besar dah ni; tak jadi pun.
 
hari makin hari aku suka tengok sahabat yang berjaya.ada pulak yang berkira-kira nak mendirikan 'masjid' ... tahniah!aku tumpang bahagia,kawan-kawan!harap-harap pilihan itu tepat dan bijak.kalau tak bagi aku tumpang seronok; terpaksalah aku curik kebahagiaan itu.aku tau aku tak mampu dan terdaya dengan keadaan semasa aku yang macam ni.tapi sekurang-kurangnya aku tak berhenti berharap dan masih tegar impikan apa yang aku cita selama ni.
 
ah!karut ... ini semua mainan khayalan aku.
 
 
 
 

Sabtu, Julai 17, 2004

If you were going to the movies this weekend to see I, ROBOT with the specific notion that you'd be one of the first to see the BATMAN BEGINS trailer, you're going to be disappointed. According to sources (the first to report that the trailer would indeed be attached to ROBOT), Warner Bros. pulled plans to run the trailer at the last minute. Not only have the pulled the BATMAN trailer from running with ROBOT, it also appears it won't run with CATWOMAN either. They report that the BATMAN trailer was replaced with the EXORCIST: THE BEGINNING for ROBOT and the Ed Burns thriller SOUND OF THUNDER on CATWOMAN. This, of course, leaves us without a definite date of when the BATMAN BEGINS trailer will debut. One thing seems sure though - that fans will most unlikely get the first glimpse of the trailer, whether in part or in whole. There was no reason given as to why Warner Bros. pulled the plug on the trailer at such late notice. As of earlier this week it was still listed on trailer scorecards for I, ROBOT...
 
 
dammit ... and i was just getting to be excited!


" Waktu berjalan lambat mengiring dalam titian takdir hidupku ... Cukup sudah aku tertahan dalam persimpangan masa silamku "
 
- padi, 'semua tak sama'.
 
 
 
inikan hujan lagi dan aku terkesima dan termangu dihujung kenangan.

... a conscience, yes and i do said conscience; in a form of a girl --- suddenly and all apparently stood up to me and said :  
 
 
" hey??!! what is this you're writing? im bored, and i'm dead bored of your tales and fables and it doesn't make any : sense. and another thing; you 'copy-paster' ... aren't they any 'real' things to be said beside your fictional ambition to conquer your so-called 'dreamworld'??? what are you doing?what are you doing?don't you have any originality to be reckon with? this is not the 'you' i used to know.stop this and i mean at once. i'm tired of you now ... really tired. come'on!!! "
 
 
oh,well ...

Khamis, Julai 15, 2004

" Dream casts a human shadow, when it occurs to him to do so. "

- Excerpt from Season of Mists: a prologue



Flowers gathered in the morning,
Afternoon they blossom on,
Still are withered by the evening:
You can be me when I'm gone.



What power would guilty have if those imprisoned there could not dream of redemption?Our existence deforms the universe. That's responsibility.Any view of things that is not strange is false.I do not threaten, I merely advise caution.

If you don't have a name, what do people call you? I mean, do they just wave and smile, or pretend to be happy or what?

(... this is just me, talking to myself again)



"... Life is no play. We meet people once, and never see them again. There is no shape to events, no point at which we turn to the audience for phrase. No time at which we step behind the stage, to see the actors changing their wigs, ang painting their faces, and muttering their lines."

- Will Shakespeare talking to Dream, in 'The Wake'






Selasa, Julai 13, 2004

" ...and may each and every one of us always give the devil his due."

- A Season of Mists



I'm one of those people that fancies himself a writer of some sort or another. From time to time, I've written various items, usually poetry. My subject matter ranges from fantasy to non-fiction to love poetry.

I've placed some works here, so that people can see what a terrible writer I am. The sampling I have is mostly fantasy and love poetry, which doesn't exactly help with the quality of my available works. I've taken to writing short fiction, lately --- although most of what I've written so far looks largely autobiographical.There's a certain stereotype about poets and writers; they're morose, over-analytical, self-pitying, and decidedly arrogant. I'd like to say that I'm none of those things, but I tend to write better when I get into those modes of thought.

Have a taste of my thoughts, and sample the feelings of some of the wordsmiths that came before me.

Does that answer you question?



" That you shall know, at all times, and forever, exactly what you are. And you shall know just how little that means.... now,leave. "

- THE SANDMAN movie by Neil Gaiman; screenplay by Ted Elliott & Terry Rossio


...movie spoilers galore!




part one:


Sticking with the superhero theme, it is reported that Lachy Hulme might be up for the role of a young Joker in the next BATMAN film (...that being the sequel to BATMAN BEGINS). Lachy ["The Matrix Revolutions"] would love to play the role, but stresses that he hasn't been made an offer yet. "I got the heads up from my LA manager that WB have been kicking my pitiful name around for the Joker role in the Begins sequel. It is a role that I would desperately love, but it's way too early for internet rumours to be flying", he says. Obviously not Lachy since you just made your way to this article.


part two:


... regarding the Wachowski Brothers' possible next project over at InsomniaMania.com --- PLASTIC MAN!?! "If this gets the green light we may expect a release of 2005 or 2006?! No cards have been put down on the table, however it looks like the Wachowski Brothers' script reads like a PG-13 movie. Warner Brothers and Amblin Entertainment remain involved in the project, it could also spread over to DreamWorks Pictures." They go on to throw a couple names on the fire, one of them obviously being Jim Carrey since he is in fact, made of plastic, and the other being Bruce Campbell. Bruce is getting up there in years but a role like this would do wonders for the iconic cult fave. From the looks of it, Bruce already has the part.



thats all,folks ... for now.

Isnin, Julai 12, 2004

... here's the deal on the latest SUPERMAN flick ; eyes wide.


Despite the fact that just over a week ago, Warner Bros. said they were "very much in business" with SUPERMAN director McG ( ...the guy who did charlie's angel), the studio officially confirmed today that the two have of officially parted ways. It had been rumored since June that McG was off the project but WB maintained he was still involved. This same tactic (denydenydeny) was used when Brett Ratner's days were numbered on the project. While it appears to be a number of different issues that led to the decline of McG's tenure on the project, McG himself issued a statement indicating location was the biggest problem. "When I flew to New York to scout, I became enamored with our greatest American city. It was clear to me that this was Metropolis. As a filmmaker, I felt it was inappropriate to try to capture the heart of America on another continent." That other continent he was referring to is Australia, which is where WB is currently setting up shop to shoot the film. Though location might be an official reason why McG and WB "amicably" parted ways, budget and casting are also believed to have played a large part in the rift as well. Michael Bay seemed to have been the leading candidate to replace McG on the project, especially after a cryptic posting on his official site showing the new SUPERMAN logo in the news section. But sources for the director said that while he has spoken with the studio about it, "it is not real likely that things will work out for it" (source: superman-v.com). Stay tuned as word of McG's replacement will no doubt come swiftly as the studio tries to keep momentum going on this project towards a late 2004 start date.

McG has been on board to direct the project since last summer, in recent weeks rumors have been circulating that there are problems between the studio and the director over the location of the shoot, according to sources. That has sparked talk that Bay is in line to replace McG. A Warner Bros. spokesperson maintains that the studio is still very much in business with McG and that rumors about Bay's involvement are "absolutely not true";Bay has not been approached about the film. Bay said through a staffer that the site is operated by a fan and that he had no involvement in posting the logo.

well,well --- at least things are moving around for a new man of steel movie here.


p/s : i hope they will hook-up Tom Welling for this.

Ahad, Julai 11, 2004

Dream ;
It is hard to say anything at this time about Dream.

The previous Dream was a cold follower of rules, a collector of names, a breaker of his own heart. He was also a prince of stories, a friend to few, and an enemy to some. This is neither the place nor the time though, to tell his story.

The current Dream seems more compassionate than his predecessor, more caring, more concerned. But it is too early to tell anything about his reign over what is not, except perhaps this:

The king is dead, long live the king.

"... people think dreams aren't real because they aren't made of matter,or particles. Dreams are REAL; but they are made of viewpoints,of images,of memories and puns and lost hopes."

- prelude and nocturnes,the sandman:vol I




'the sleepwalker'

Those pictures in my mind are whirling,
Come on, go on, take a look,
When ever it is I close my eyes
A myth, a monster, maybe a man,
stars at me though the half-dream mist.
God, just let him stay!

The look of his eyes
as they glint in the mist
sends my head whirling
and I just want to stay,
To be with the man,
To steal a last look.

That guy, with his dark look
And his obsidean eyes!
And perhaps he's not a man,
But a shadow of mist
My mind has sent whirling,
Unable to stay.

Here, on the outside, is where I stay,
And watch the fall leaves whirling,
And all is void of mist.
Without a glace or a single look,
I know there is no man,
There are no midnight eyes.

Now, when I want to be in mist,
All I do is close my eyes,
And standing there is the man.




Dream, Take my hand.There we go then. In the midst of illusions we are in life.When you say words a lot they don't mean anything. Or maybe they don't mean anything anyway, and we just think they do.Sometimes you wake up,sometimes the fall kills you.And sometimes, when you fall, you fly.


" Not knowing everything is all that makes it okay, sometimes. "
- from the brief lives







Jumaat, Julai 09, 2004

It's gonnna be fantastic!


I was just wondering aloud yesterday when I hear about the cast of FANTASTIC FOUR since Marvel Comics made it sound like the news would've been announced last week. Well... here we are - the official word is here! Folks, meet the cast of FANTASTIC FOUR!!!

Michael Chiklis as The Thing --- Chiklis was one of the first actors attached to the new iteration of THE FANTASTIC FOUR as first scooped. Definitely has the attitude and the size, though I thought his age, since the rumors were the cast was skewing younger, might preclude him from the part. All in all a great choice to play Ben Grimm/The Thing. Chiklis won an Emmy for Outstanding Lead Actor in a Drama Series in 2002 for his role on the FX series "The Shield." It's clobbering time!!!

Ioan Gruffudd as Mr. Fantastic
--- Gruffudd emerged as a contender for the role of Reed Richards/Mr. Fantastic a few weeks back but I wasn't sure how much stock to put in the news (was it Disney trying to drum up interest in one of the stars of their upcoming KING ARTHUR?). But the Welsh actor seems a great fit for the part. My biggest fear was a young actor who wouldn't be believable as someone of Reed's superior intellect. Could you imagine Paul Walker trying to pull off the part? Gruffudd is perhaps best known for his role as Horatio Hornblower(a cult classic) in the TV films of the same name.

Chris Evans as The Human Torch
--- Here's another case of not being able to trust the rumors for fear of publicists leaking their clients name to promote an upcoming movie. In Evans case, he'll be starring in CELLULAR for New Line this September. He's also been seen in THE PERFECT SCORE and NOT ANOTHER TEEN MOVIE. I'm not familiar enough with Evans' work to make an informed decision but based on looks alone, he certainly has Johnny Storm down pat.

Now here's where things get sticky...Jessica Alba is currently the frontrunner to star as Invisible Woman though points out that she hasn't officially signed on yet and should her deal hit a snag, Rachel McAdams and Keri Russell (?!) are back-ups. But assuming Alba's deal goes through and considering I think she's by far the best of the three for the part, let's take a closer look at her.

Jessica Alba as Invisible Woman (not confirmed) --- Alba's name is a newcomer into the mix that has included a who's who of Hollywood starlets. Rachel McAdams seemed to be the frontrunner but somehow Alba, now filming SIN CITY for Robert Rodriguez, rose to the top. Alba recently wrapped INTO THE BLUE with Paul Walker, once a candidate for the film as well. While the hair is a problem (Alba would have to go blonde) I think her name is by far the best candidate I've heard since Elisha Cuthbert. Great choice.

In other FF tidbits, the film is currently budgeted at approximately $85-90 million and will begin filming later this August in Vancouver. The film is currently slated for a July 1, 2005 release where it would go up against Tom Cruise in MISSION: IMPOSSIBLE 3. Tim Story (BARBERSHOP) will direct the film from a script by Simon Kinberg (MR. AND MRS. SMITH)... (That's weird, I thought Mark Frost was being credited with the shooting script...)

well,fanboys ...there goes another wish came true!

'nuff said!

ATTENTION


information ... important information! :


my friendster has been hacked again.so be aware
of any funny and unpleasant particulars and
details stated in my profile.

thank you for the attention.



p/s: ...others watch out!!!; this disruption could and
would apply to you too.

Rabu, Julai 07, 2004

...in case you all didn't know, I am an infinite fan of the Batman.


I like the way Warner Bros has slowly built its BATMAN BEGINS : YEAR ONE promotion by dropping little hints of the movie as they go along, with a teaser site here, a picture there and a general good pace in terms of the film's ultimate build-up to July of 2005. Without notice, they have tended to add the latest pictures from the movie to its official website.Christopher Nolan directing (memento),Christian Bale as Batman@Bruce Wayne; its a fanboy wet dream! I have been 100% on board this film from the start (other than the seemingly "all-terrain" Batmobile, which still needs to convince me : ( its a tanker,for crying out-loud!!!), but I will say that despite adoring Gary Oldman, the actor, I'm not sure I buy him as Lieutenant Gordon (the man before Commisioner Gordon), particularly in the first picture of the character (http://batmanbegins.warnerbros.com/). Is that a fake-looking mustache or what?!? Hopefully, it will look better "in action". Other than that, we get the first look at Michael Caine as Alfred, a second look at Liam Neeson as Henri Ducard (or as I like to call him in the website: Qui-Gon Jinn) and Morgan Freeman as Lucius Fox. Don't worry, folks...there are still plenty of "firsts" to come with Katie Holmes, Ken Watanabe's Ra's Al Ghul and Cillian Murphy as The Scarecrow still lurking...


until then --- long live fanboy fandom!!!



p/s: now,now ... when is Micheal Bay or McG gonna direct my Superman Lives screenplay?

Selasa, Julai 06, 2004

I suppose that I could claim that I had always suspected that the world was a cheap and shoddy sham, a bad cover for something deeper and weirder and infinitely more strange, and that, in some way, I already knew the truth. But I think that's just how the world has always been. And even now that I know the truth, as you will, my love, if you're reading this, the world still seems cheap and shoddy. Different world, different shoddy, but that's how it feels.

They say, here's the truth, and I say, is that all there is? And they say, kind of. Pretty much. As far as we know.

In fiction, I think I would have refused to believe it was happening, wonder if I'd been drugged or if I was dreaming. In reality, hell, it had happened, and I stared up into the darkness, and then, when nothing happened, I began to walk, splashing through the liquid world, calling out, seeing if anyone was there.

Something flickered in front of me.

They may be heartless, unfeeling, bastards, leeching off the minds of what's left of humanity. But I can't help feeling grateful to them.


oohhh!!!my headache.





Khamis, Julai 01, 2004

It is a fool's prerogative to utter truths that no one else will speak.Bodies are strange. Some people have real problems with the stuff that goes on inside them. You find out that inside someone you know there's just mucus and meat and slime and bone. They menstruate, salivate, defecate and cry. You know? Sometimes it can just kill the romance. You know that? I do.

Anyway... I'm not blessed, or merciful. I'm just me. I've got a job to do, and I do it. Listen : even as we're talking, I'm there, innocent and guilty, those who are together and those who are alone. I'm in cars and on roads and at home; in cinemas and footy fields and sleep. For some people, dream is a release, and for others dream is an abomination, a terrible thing. But in the end, I'm there and all of them too.

A mirror. Imagine that you woke in the night, and seemed to see before you another person whom you slowly perceived to be yourself. Someone had entered in the night and placed a mirror in your sleeping place, made from a emptiness. You had been frightened only of your reflection. But then the reflection slowly raised one hand, while your own stayed still.A dark mirror.That was always the intention.The price of getting what you want is getting what once you wanted.When you say words a lot they don't mean anything. Or maybe they don't mean anything anyway, and we just think they do.I do not threaten, I merely advise caution.

Things need not have happened to be true. Tales and dreams are the shadow-truths that will endure when mere facts are dust and ashes, and forgot.

What's the name of the word for things not being the same always. You know. I'm sure there is one. Isn't there? There must be a word for it ... the thing that lets you know time is happening. Is there a word?

Change.

p/s : I'm cold. I hate being nowhere. Let's go somewhere instead.

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