Jumaat, April 30, 2004

... if there's gonna be a movie about me and i think i should deserve all the creative consulting on that flick. Here's the two major soundtrack :



" Iris "



And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
Yhea you bleed just to know you're alive

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am


by goo goo dolls.




"Here Without You"



A hundred days have made me older
since the last time that i saw your pretty face
a thousand lies have made me colder
and i don't think i can look at this the same
but all these miles that seperate
disappear now when i'm dreaming of your face

i'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight it's only you and me

the miles just keep rollin'
as the people leave their way to say hello
i've heard this life was overrated
but i hope that it gets better as we go

i'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight its only you and me

everything i know,and anywhere i go
it gets hard but it wont take away my love
and when the last one falls
when it's all said and done
it gets hard but it wont take away my love

i'm here without you baby
but you're still on my lonely mind
i think about you baby
and i dream about you all the time
i'm here without you baby
but you're still with me in my dreams
and tonight girl its only you and me


by 3 doors down.

" ... nak seribu daya, tak nak seribu dalih "

what does that suppossed to mean? - - - i've been there,done that.


I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You ... ( ROZIDAH BTE. IMRAN )

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you


... but I'm not ready to leave,just yet . and I'm not even considering

Rabu, April 28, 2004

i suck and everyone says i'm " lembap " --- i regret that i lied and cheated my girlfriend, and i promise never to be that sucky boyfriend no more.

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( Disclaimer : This is a stunt that shouldn’t be attempt by anyone ,anywhere, anytime. )


" a peace offering " : by Faizal Mukhtar


The one where --- I spend and write and stayed up the whole of night


More than words can say …

This is my love for you,
The most cherished thought
I hold in my heart … is the one
That hopes you’ll always love me.
I know that I’ll always love you.

I’d like to give you so many things for you. But the one thing I would most like for you to have is something that I’ll never give to anyone else but you. A love that lasts and lasts. This is for you because I love you so much.

If I didn’t have you, I don’t know what I would do. For with you I have so much. Such sweetness. And happiness. And love. You are a rare combination of so many special things. You bring me feelings that know no limits, and smiles that never go away. You are a part of every day of my life, whether you are close enough to touch or out of reach to all but my hopes and dreams. In everything, it seems like my life was just waiting for you. And with you here, I want you to know that I have never been so happy.

I love you for understanding me the way you do. And for caring. You have created lasting changes in my life and in the way I want tomorrow to be. You have given me the courage to express what I feel inside. We have shared thoughts that have brought us together, and that will keep us there from now until the end of time. Our love is a give that will forever be. Thank you, Love, for being mine. Thank you … for loving me.

For you, I finally found the words to tell you exactly how I feel.

I can’t always explain my feelings the way I want you to understand them. Sometimes when we talk, there are so many beautiful and intense feelings that flow in and out of my soul for you, yet the words as I say them never seem to allow those feelings to touch you.
Today, I found these words, and I realized that there are times when we need to be silent and allow the written, unspoken, word to communicate the heart’s innermost passion.

I am in love with you and I want to open up so much more of myself to you. I want to be just who I am when I’m with you and never feel the need to pretend to be anything more. I want us to feel the freedom to express our needs and our hurts without ever having to raise the tone of our voices. I want us to fight for our love and never consider being apart as the answer to a problem. I want to grow with you, deep into the seasons of our lives. I never want us to forget to hold hands when we walk together.

I want to tell you that being with you is simply the best way for me to spend my life. And I want you to know that I love you today … and for all of my tomorrows.

Falling in love with you was one of my life’s most perfect moments.

When I fell in love with you, I didn’t stop to think it over or decide if I was thinking clearly because my heart had taken over so completely. All I knew was how I feel inside --- so warm and dizzy with emotion, so immersed in brand new feelings and so overtaken by my love for you. And the way I felt just looking in you eyes. When you took my hand in yours and spoke those perfect words “ I love you ”, my heart just melted instantly. I couldn’t stop this feeling ever if I wanted to, for the love began inside my heart and grew to such a great degree that is filled my life with a complete and special knowledge of the love I had been waiting for. I found happiness the day we met and I am forever grateful for that perfect moment when I fell in love with you.

From today onwards, do you know what I want in a relationship?

I want emotional closeness, I want sharing. I want a beautiful bridge between us that is always there, always open, and always secure … always ours alone. I want communication; I want words that speak our language. I want touches that say more than words can mean. I want to talk things over, whether they’re little or large. I want to be more in touch with you than I’ve ever been before.

I want the things we do turn into some of the nicest memories any two people could ever ask for. I want friendship, I want love, I want gentleness, I want strength, I want as much happiness as tomorrow can promise to anyone. I want to be ‘home’ to you, I want you to be ‘home’ to me.

And I want the smile that is in my heart to always reflect so beautifully in the eyes I most love to see. I found what I was searching for. And now, the thing I most want to do is to let you know how very much I love you. Because I love you for so many reasons.

Before I met you, I spent time meeting all kinds of people. I had stupid fun and learned a lot. Though each person had characteristics … something was missing. No one person had all the qualities that I had hoped a person could have. Someone whose every action and thought I could respect. Someone who was very intelligent yet could also be genuinely fun-loving. Someone who is very sensitive yet virile, exciting and sensuous. Someone who knew what they wanted out of life. A beautiful person inside and out.

I could not find a person like this until I met you. And I love you for you.

Sometimes I got so caught up in my own ‘busy’ world that I forget what means the most to me in my life. I get so wrapped up that I let too much time to go by without telling you that you mean absolutely everything to me. When I’m not with you, I’m thinking of you. When I don’t know where you are, I’m worrying about you. And when I’m with you … I wonder how I could let anytime at all go by without telling you how much I love you. I hope you’ll always be my Love … my Kuchilove.

I love you because I know I love you.





Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words.....

Now I've tried to talk to you and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands and touch me
Hold me close don't ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldn't have to say that you love me
'Cause I'd already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two?
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away?
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you

More than words.....

Its the first time I ever felt this lonely
I wish someone could cure this pain
Its funny when you think its gonna work out
Til you chose weed over me, you're so lame
I thought you were cool until the point
But up until the point you didnt call me
When you said you would
I finally figured out you're all the same
Always coming up with some kind of story

Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't
You're too tough
You think you're loveless
Is that too much that I'm asking for?

I thought you'd come around when I ignored you
So I thought you'd have the decency to change
But babe, I guess you didn't take that warning
'Cause I'm not about to look at your face again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

But everytime I try to make you smile
You'd always grow up feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You stand like a stone
Alone in your zone
Is it too much that I'm asking for?

Yeah yeah yeah yeah
Can't find where i am
Lying here
Alone I fear
Afraid of the dark
No one to claim
Alone again

Can't you see that you lie to yourself
You can't see the world through a mirror
It wont be too late when the smoke clears
'Cause I, I am still here

Everytime I try to make you smile
You're always feeling sorry for yourself
Everytime I try to make you laugh
You can't
You're too tough
You think you're loveless
It was too much that I'm asking for

Ahad, April 25, 2004

‘ the fortress of solitude ’

… if words are cheap, than this are the cheapest of words

Deep down, just once at least, everyone’s wanted to feel what it’s like to be normal. And I do mean as normal as can be. For me; that feeling is long forgotten.

What is it like being the person you were actually once was? Not being the way you’re now. I had infatuations of not being myself all the time. And now is that time again. A time of whining. A time of sulking . A time of tall tales and soapy snippets. I do apologize for this. And I’m sorry … but this is a story yet to be told.

I see myself of not being myself everyday. And lately, it has gotten worse. Since when this happened??... That I couldn’t tell. I was lost over the course of time. My friends think I’m an absolute joker and always jesting 24-7. My parents gave me the silent treatment whenever I despise their willing; e.g. : my dad ‘ordered’ me to cut off my locks everyday as if I’m a standard 2 schoolchild that needed the ultimate discipline and my mother forbid me from ‘socializing’ with my clicks after 8pm as if I’m her only daughter which needed extra petting. My girlfriend gave up on me because I believe she had already given me too many chances to redeem myself to be a better person and I blew all of them. Hence --- the enchantment and the wonders of my so called ‘ beautiful life ’. And they say life is great.

I don’t know who to be anymore.

They say I’m better this way and they say that I’m better that way. But after a while, they say I’m even worse that way and were better this way. That way, this way, one way or another, there’s no way that I can be whichever way that is the best way a way can ever be.

Anywhere I look, everytime I ponder … and I still see myself as not being myself. Who am I ? What have I become ? Is this the Faizal that I wanted before or is this the Faizal that I wanted after ? betul la agaknya kot bila ada orang kata yang ‘ bukannya senang actually nak jadi orang ’. kalau tak nak jadi org pun tetap sama gak kot. Semua hidupan kat muka bumi Tuhan ni semuanya ada problem. Mana ada makhluk kat alam yang fana ni yang boleh lari atau elak dari dilanggar problem. Tapi kalau difikir2 balik, problem takkan datang kalau tak dicari. Dalam kes aku ni, memang terang2 sangat la aku yang dok carik problem. Gatal sangat. Kurang aktiviti la tu kot walhal banyak lagi program kehidupan yang boleh disusun atur. Bangang gak aku ni kadang2. Kan dah susahkan diri. Bangang!bangang!!seribu kali bangang!!! …

Since kecik, memang aku mengalami krisis identiti atau in englishnya identity crisis; yang memang aku takleh nak define sampai la skarang. Aku sah2 tatau apa nak jadi dan tatau apa nak aku buat ngan life aku. Bukan apa, banyak plan atau angan2 yg aku simpan dari dulu taknahnye jadi. Kalau dah di-execute pun taknah mencapai tahap kepuasan yg optimum. Hampeh je kesudahannya. Tu yg aku lebih senang dengan attitude aku yg serba spontaneous lagi impromptu ini. Tak tau la pulak sampai bila aku nak jadi camni. Tapi untuk informasi bersama, aku takde la selalu sangat hidup tak berperancangan. Ada la masa2 atau time2 tertentu tu yang menuntut aku beretika. Mana boleh main ‘ belasah ’ jer,ye tak? Hidup ini berperaturan … like it or not, ‘ ia sudah pun diatur dan semuanya sudah pun tertulis ’.

Normality was once my specialty. A bold statement I made now but nevertheless, there I was before. Let me take myself down memory lane. It was as far as I can remember. I was a naïve and a vulnerable 7 year old corny but corky kid ( come to think of it, I am still that corny and corky ) .It was primary school. 6 not so long years I have spent. I made contact and I communicate . They were not all good but they were o.k. I cant really say that there weren’t any influence at all in my life at that time but then again, I started to look at life differently once I got acquainted with ‘ people ’. I realize that people tend to be different and they love to contradict one and another. And here we go. And this is also the part where I ironically said : everything else is history.

I had my first best friend, I had my first mortal foe, I had my first love/crush, my first this and my first that. I learnt that life is getting hard everyday once you got to know life. Its like being in a shitty soap opera serial but the plot is far more shittier. Destiny, destruction, desire, despair, delirium and dream. This is what I called ‘ the endless ’ ( … death included ). The seven surreal foundation of life that bears the essence of all mortality.


There is a dark king who rules our dreams from a place of shadows and fantastic things. He is Morpheus; the Lord of Stories. Older than humankind itself, he inhabits --- along with destiny, destruction, desire, despair and delirium; his Endless sisters and brothers, the realm of human consciousness. His powers are myth and nightmare; inspirations, pleasures and punishments manifested beneath the blanketing mist of sleep … surrender to him now.

Neil Gaiman, the Sandman : Preludes and Nocturnes


Secondary school in 1993 wasn’t an exception. I couldn’t say it was my supreme days but slightly stupendous; that much I can recall. This is where I study of renegade, rebellion, revenge, remonstrance, remorse, rampage and rip-roars. The period of my earliest reincarnation begins after this. After my schooling era; lies a time of absolute ultimization unto the real world. A time where I met the ‘ almost – me ’.

The most excellent and extreme of times. 1998 started it all, the revolution of me and the evolution of I. Most of it was UiTM, it holds total responsibility. I met new faces and I found new places. This is the frame where everything in me collides. I cant describe nor define what really happened to my life during my nearly 5 years there. In a word; I was transformed. My ‘ migration ’ is completed. I am no longer normal. I was far from being salvaged. I became different.

I am no longer the Faizal I once knew but I am the Faizal I came to know now.

Fast forward to now. And here I stand in front of me. Facing the man I was doomed to be with; everyday and everytime for the rest of eternity and what left of infinity. This is a cliché : I cant run and I cant hide. Reality bites and it has bitten me so many times until it left a scar so deep and painful that no one even knew how it feels.

I am hurt.

… to be concluded.








Selasa, April 20, 2004

" fortress of solitude "

What really makes a man … a man ?it is the choices they made.
- Mike Mignola, Seed of Destruction


Now, this is it. Every morning when I get up from bed … the same thing has struck my head over and over again. But it seem that no matter how frequent or how often that same, usual surreal conscience hit me, it still don’t make any sense. That is until now.

You see, having an on and off again relationship with my inner complexity makes me not wanting to do this. Orang kata; takde makna pun. Sapa sebenarnya yang pedulik sangat kalau aku cakap benda2 ni pun?? Berapa kerat ajer yang betul2 nak dengar atau pasang telinga luas2?? Kalau ada yang pedulik atau amik ‘pot’ ; itu pun sebab diorang ada niat lain … dan biasanya niat diorang tak lain,tak bukan … memang secara totalnya berbaur ‘busuk’ (maknanya: nak ngodemkan atau pangkah ajer kerjanya!).There’s no point actually in doing this, rhetorically speaking. I don’t do exposé, I don’t brag nor nag nor hog around telling sick pathetic story of life and top of it all … I don’t feel the need, at all to do such things.

Aku tau aku dah besar dan takyahlah korang susah2 payah nak bukak kamus dewan korang yang usang nan lusuh nak carik makna perkataan ‘dewasa’ tu pun … sebab korang semua pun dah cukup dewasa nak tau apa yang aku try nak apply kat sini. Dulu masa aku kecik ( … tak laa kecik mana pun ), aku pegi sekolah hari2 sambil pikir2 kosong - apa sebenarnya yang orang tua dok sibuk suruh anak diorang pegi sekolah belajar rajin2 tiap2 hari, sedangkan anak2 diorang ni yang pada pemikiran aku yang time tu tersangatlah shallownya nampak : geng2 aku yang secara pukul ratanya tak nampak pun sangat nak belajar sungguh2? ( aku tataulah geng2 lain sebab dulu kat sekolah kitorang dulu ada konco2 tertentu dengan misi2 mustahil kitorang sendiri … pathetic nak mampos!). Mostly yang datang sekolah pun nak jumpa member2, borak2 bodoh sambil gelak2 bangang macam esok dah tak jumpa lagi dah ( note : aktiviti ini masih lagi
dipraktikkan sampai sekarang oleh orang2 yang sama ), ada pulak yang sibuk nak jumpa awek sebab awek diorang satu kelas atau satu sekolah, yang takde awek tu pulak; sibuk buat2 rajin datang sekolah dan buat2 macho + kacak sebab ada awek pujaan diorang yang pada mentaliti mamat2 ni tadi harus di`tackle` dengan jayanya, ada separuh yang lain tu pulak datang sekolah sebab memang mak bapak diorang suruh ( kalau tak gi kang kena bambu atau pun sebat ), ada pulak yang memang datang sebab kalau tak hadir diorang tak nampak `rugged` ataupun `fit` ngan society setempat ( atau dengan lebih tepat lagi dengan penggunaan prosa kasar lagi kurang hajar : sapa tak nak gi sekolah memang diklasifiksikan sebagai bengap !!! ). Tak nafi jugak, ada puak2 lain tu memang betul2, benar2 dan sungguh2 nak belajar dan menuntut ilmu sebab ingin ke menara gading sedangkan mereka semua sedar yang menara yang ingin mereka pergi itu tidaklah berbentuk gading ataupun tidak ada satu pusat pengajian tinggi dan universiti di muka bumi ni pun yang namanya University of Gading ataupun menawarkan kursus yang melibatkan gading (sorry,terbuat lawak bangang … salah aku). So, maknanya … sekolah tu bukanlah tempat belajar ajer sebenarnya tapi tempat untuk berbagai-macam aktiviti2 serta propaganda2 dan agenda2 ntah hapa-hapa bagi budak2 sekolah yang memang tak tau apa nak buat dengan masa muda mereka yang pada hemat aku yang vulnerable ni sangatlah preciousnya. And come to think of it, nasihat orang2 tua yang mengharap anak2 diorang tu belajar dengan bersungguh2 actually tak lengkap dan tak akan masuk dalam kepala hotak ni sampai bila2 selagi tak disampai dengan betul.

To be precise, yang selayaknya nasihat yng patut diberikan ialah : “ … pegi sekolah tu belajarla rajin2, jangan dok ikut kawan2 sangat sebab nasihat mak bapak diorang tu maybe tak sama ngan nasihat aku sebab tu aku bagi nasihat yang tak sama macam mak bapak diorang, jangan korang buang masa tak tentu arah … esok2 kang nak jadi orang susah sebab ramai sangat dah orang kat luar sana nama aje orang,rupanya aje macam orang tapi sebenarnya tak sama langsung macam orang daaahh!! … sendiri mau ingat laa,aku ni orang tua kau. Kang aku tak bagitau kang nampak sangat aku ni tak sayang kau,paham tak??! ”. Jadinya dengan maka itu, ada sedikit kesedaran supaya member2 aku ni takkan anggap mak bapak diorang membebel tapi sebaliknya memberi nasihat yang cukup concise lagi direct. Ni sekarang bila dah abis sekolah dan tamat pengajian aku sebagai seorang student, aku realise masih ada lagi kawan2 aku (campur ngan `musuh2` aku) yang still tak complete kitaran homo sapien diorang, apa lagi nak jadi super sapien (lawak bangang lagi). Sesedap rasa je nak pangkah2, condemn2 denga kutuk2 orang; macamlah diorang ingat diorang ni best sangat. Memanglah tak diajar mata pelajaran ataupun subjek `Pendidikan nak jadi Orang` kat sekolah sebab mesti orang2 kat kementerian sinun cakap … “ takkan itupun nak kena hajar, apa itu pun tak reti2 lagi ker?” . The thing here, ladies and gentlemen is … just think, for once ; what is it that make us … us? --- What really makes a man … a man? Is it the level of education that were programmed and implanted by our parents since we were infant?is it the grade of our self-consciousness from deep within? Or is it just that we prefer being neglectful and not being bothered by other people’s mindset?

Honestly, I do believe in totality ( … yang ni korang boleh bukak kamus ) but I’m definitely against the idea of perfectibility. The saying `nobody’s perfect` really makes real sense, you know. This is no crap talk. And im staying, no matter how long this crusade will take.These are a few lines to ponder. Its by a friend of a friend of mine --- ( … im not sure their real names anymore but they’re ok ). They’re arguably very artistic, making poetic music. if im not mistaken … poetically `phat.

And I leave for later.


` Solitude to look at life from different angles.
Thoughts strangle, my mind is suffocating and the truth quest`
…im making clear that I ain’t even trying to preach here
but sharing thoughts I hope I can find a little peace here.
I thank a love for blessing me to be creative.
So here’s a dissing me for being non-appreciative
…look at the past time, I wish I was born again
so I can ratify my mistakes and wrong-doings
…before my story ends; I aint no ready muffing,
trying to sound as a holy man
…but if I tried to be a better person
Now, I probably can. `


Selasa, April 13, 2004

PENGUMUMAN PENTING : UPDATE .

012 - 3740945


DENGAN INI DIMAKLUMKAN BAHAWASANYA SAYA TELAH PUN
BERTUKAR KEPADA NO TELEFON BIMBIT YANG BARU.INI
DISEBABKAN NO TELEFON YANG LAMA SUDAH DI NYAH-
AKTIFKAN OLEH ORANG2 MAXIS YANG TIDAK BERHATI
PERUT DAN TIDAK ADA NILAI SIMPATI LANGSUNG KEPADA
DIRI SAYA YANG SERBA SENGKEK INI.HAMPEH SERIBU
KALI HAMPEH.

SEKIRANYA INGIN TAHU AKAN NO. BARU ITU,SILALAH
LAWAT KE LAMAN BLOG SAYA YANG TERTERA NO. TELEFON
YANG BARU ITU.

SEKALI LAGI,SEGALA KESULITAN KERANA TIDAK DAPAT
MENGHUBUNGI ATAU MENG-CONTACT SAYA AMATLAH SAYA
KESALI ... SUNGGUH KESAL YANG TERAMAT!

Isnin, April 12, 2004

HARAP MAKLUM.INI ADALAH SUATU PENGUMUMAN YANG PENTING.

Dengan ini saya,Faizal Mukhtar ingin nak bagitau
korang semua something yang perlu korang2 semua
ambik tau.Ini disebabkan pagi tadi saya bangun
dan sesuatu yang amatlah tragis telah berlaku
kepada kehidupan saya yang serba malang ini. Yang
demikian ini saya nak maklumkan kepada korang2
semua yang bahawasanya talian telefon bimbit saya
telah pun DIPOTONG ... saya ulangi DIPOTONG abiss.
Nak buat camner,nasik dah jadi bubur.Padan muka
aku!!!Sapa suruh tak bayar bil sampai 4
bulan,tempeleng kang --- baru tau!


Jadi tak gunalah korang2 semua mendail nombor itu
lagi kerana sudah tiada gunanya lagi dan paling
tak bermanfaat sekiranya diteruskan
jua.apapun,korang2 semua bolehlah contact aku
lalu e-mail atau group ini untuk update tentang
diri saya yang serba hampeh ini.

sekain,terima kasihlah.

p/s : saya akan cuba dengan segala super-power
saya untuk mengembalikan talian telefon
saya...paling tidakpun saya beli line baru untuk
kegunaan dan kesenangan kita bersama.sekali
lagi,maafkanlah diatas kesulitan ini.

Khamis, April 08, 2004

Love --- Right or Happy ...
Do we have a good "relationship?, "Are you doing love "right?", Am I doing love "right?"

( ...this is once again, for those who might be concern ).


With all the self-help books that tell us how to get love "right," even give us advice on how to make love "right," why is it that we still can't get our relationships "right?". Is it true that men and women speak different love languages? Are men really from Mars and women really from Venus when relationships are concerned?

No matter how well intended these books are, they have severe limitations. Most are assumptions about love and relationships with no real basis in clinical evidence. There are some studies available, however, which offer extensive factors on what constitute well-functioning relationships. They can even predict with 99% plus accuracy what factors will lead to love and happiness or misery, separation, and breaking off.
We learned about loving from our families. Consequently, how you want to be loved and how you love your partner may not be what he or she needs in order to feel love. Ask your partner what he/she needs to feel loved. Don't guess or assume when relationships are concerned.

Are you someone who makes others glad they are who they are? If your answer is YES, then you will find love in your relationships. A stable relationship is characterized by people who understand that love is something that you do; it is not something you get "right." It is a mystery to be lived, not a problem to be solved. We are all human and that means we are not perfect. We have our limitations and we always will.Happiness is a route that will "happen." You can't be happy if you aren't doing something positive.
Problems are inherent in all relationships. Some can be solved; some cannot. Here are some thoughts that may help guide you through the tough times:

1. Beliefs about love and loving. We learned about loving from our families and no two families are alike. Consequently, how you want to be loved and how you love your partner may not be what he or she needs in order to feel love. Ask your partner what he/she needs to feel loved. Don't guess or assume.

2. Language. Language itself, by its very nature, causes problems. No two people understand a statement the same way. Ask this question, "Can you explain what you mean." This question can clear up many misunderstandings.

3. Relationship rules. Relationship rules have to be negotiated regarding work, play and money. She believes in working till you drop; he believes that enough is enough. She wants shopping; he wants to go to the football game. She wants dating occasionally; he wants it often. Negotiate!

4. Selfishness. People want to have their own way. Trade out so both of you get your needs met in the relationship.

5. Wounds. Wounds, from past relationships or family, projected into your current relationship will cause problems. Big ones. He/ she is different, better we hope, because we have learned from our past mistakes and don't want to repeat them.

6. Differences: specific differences and idiosyncratic (..carik la dlm kamus) differences and differences of personality. The more you have in common, the better chance you have of making it together.

7. Self-esteem. The level of solid self-esteem each person has achieved will make a big difference. If you don't like you, then why should anyone else?

8. Familiarity, boredom and routine. Women know more about romance than men. But women can teach us; most of us are willing to learn, especially when we know the rewards.

9. Controlling. Controlling another's friends, time, or anything else will create major blocks and place barriers between partners.

10. Jealousy. Jealously is truly a "Green-Eyed Monster" that will cause relationships to fail. Jealousy is based in fear and seldom based in reality. Fear is defined as False Evidence Appearing Real, not reality.
(..i made that one up myself,ok tak?)

The above are causes of many needless breakups. If you mistrust, want to control, have contempt for and/or withdraw from your partner, then you are headed towards trouble in your relationship. Everyone needs to feel trusted, appreciated, and loved. You can think, and know, you are "right," and still be wrong. Right and wrong are not what counts in a relationship. This counts: Does it work, and if it doesn't work, how can we fix it so both parties feel good about themselves?

An old saying that I want to leave you with is," When someone makes you feel good about being who you are, that is the person you want to be with more and more."

Are you someone who makes others glad they are who they are?

If your answer is YES, then you will find love.

If your answer is NO, then just think about what you are missing in life.

p/s : read this again and again to get my point.



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